Who am I

Evey day I go to bed asking myself what have I done today? Was it my day? Everything in work goes well and as I wanted to be. But as a person if I compare myself in the last 6 months:
I have started feeling lonely, which I have never been in my entire life. I have lost the sense to react to emotions. Jokes, Laughs, happiness, sorrow, hard times nothing seems different to me. Feels like I have lost everything in this world. Party, friends, leisures, games, sweets, food, places nothing fascinates me except some slow songs. Want to be alone all the times with no cause. I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry and then I console tentatively. I cannot talk to my soul and understand what is happening. Everytime it ends with either consoling or confusing. All my recent blogs also has been emotional. To tell you its only the beginning. Don't know where it will lead and when, where and how will it end. ....... "Tu Mile Dil Khile, Aur Jeene ko kya chahiye"